I swore I had seen this before, but I hadn't, although I was well prepared for the brutality that I knew it showed.
Actually, I wasn't prepared. Not to say that I grew up thinking there was anything nice about what Jesus endured that day, but I believe this movie is probably a pretty accurate presentation, and it's truly horrifying that, for one thing, people could even do anything like that to each other. Truly, just horrifying, the complete disregard for another human being.
All I can say is, I'm not worthy of the forgiveness that Christ's suffering and subsequent death and resurrection gave all of us an opportunity to have. I'm not worthy nor deserving of the love that Jesus has for us all. I have lived a selfish life. A pitiful, selfish life outside of the world that God created and I am so sorry. I can only pray that there is enough forgiveness for this insignificant sinner that, I know, that never, ever could have endured what Christ did that day. That has never known that level of sacrifice or love.
I watched this movie for the first time last year sometime. It was tough to watch! And, like you, I got down on my knees soon afterwards and thanked Him for the incredible sacrifice He made for us.
There's that passage in the Bible that talks about how Jesus prayed right before He got arrested. then He gets up to check on His disciples only to find they'd fallen asleep so He gets mad at them then goes back to pray again. The first time I read it it didnt make much sense to me. Then I saw the movie...and I got it. I felt His fear and how alone He must have felt knowing what was coming and His disciples not really having a clear idea of what was about to happen. He could have backed out at any time but He didn't...
Hey, have you read the book The Case for Christ yet? The writer goes into great detail about the wounds Jesus suffered and how brutal His death was. No human could have put up with all that for as long as He did.